2010♥

♥ HAPPY NEW YEAR ♥

OK, honestly I was very mad to my sisters them in the very beginning, I was begging them to go with us together, BUT..........................

but at the end I had straighten out my mind to that I cannot force anyone to do the things they are unwilling to do...

Its OK^^, you all just go to enjoy your party, still got me can accompany our parent although I also have party in my friend house...

I am very willing to do this so I must feel very happy to that and cannot blame anyone^^

Firstly, I and my mom went to my cousin house to have the steamboat together!!!♥

HAHA^^ This idea is come out from my cousin and all on the sudden/ last minutes!!!

She decided fetch her mom go to the market that nearby Farlim there and buy some steamboat stuff...

7pm++ Ooo, I and my mom went to their house and kindly buy some drinks and ice to there...

A very pretty nice steamboat♥!!!

9pm++ I went to my friend house to bbq again...eat again!!! ngek ngek ngek^^ FAT jor la, but I just take some fish ball only la, not so much too...

10.30pm++ I wanna back already although I know she is very unhappy, but I have no more choice due to my dad is back from his work and I decided bring them go to e-gate to countdown!!! I was expect she can understand me but she didn't, her family got SO many people can countdown together but mine one is just two, so I need to back!!!

So I didn't bother her and back^^

11.15pm++ reached e-gate... damn... no more table is empty!!! walk round and round also can't find any empty table=.=

So I decided go and buy some drinks at Starbucks first...and luckily I saw a place but it is indoor but it's better than no^^

Ordered a cup of Java chips♥- my favorite drinks... and a cup of toffee nut frappuccino & a piece of cake♥

before we left I ask them to wish for themselves and not for their children, both of them are wishing can be safe and sound♥ and I said all the wishes will be come true when you are wish in the new year^^

there are some picture when we are in Starbucks but kinda blur^^

After Starbucks, my friends come and meet up me again, and we just go for a drive around gurney and then went back!!!

That's all my New Year Eve!!!♥

又再一个深夜了

脑海里藏了几千几百万个字想说，想写，想发泄出来，可是当我面对着电脑的时候我且写不出内容，只能写出现在的感受。

想着 想着，眼睛却被泪水把我的视线给弄模糊了。。。

有些事只能自己知道，告诉了别人，人家会说你在背后讲人家的坏话。。。毕竟，人格有致，他有他的样，我有我的样，竟然别人跟我开不了这样子的玩笑，那以后我就得记住了，不要再犯同样的错了。。。或，不要再跟他人开完笑了。。。

我就是这样，喜欢夸张的摆弄各种的玩笑，姿态，现在的我才知道，原来这样会让人觉得我是一个做作的女生。。。我从来都没擦觉到，真的，我发誓。。。

表面装坚强的我，每次每次都独自一个人的，多在房间了偷偷哭泣。。。已经忘记了大大声，狂哭的感觉了。。。为了要展现我不是一个弱者，我选择了这样来掩护自己。。。

原来当我真正遇到有心事的时候，我会选择藏在心里；我不会选择飚车，反而架得更慢；一个人回到家时，又办得没一回事。。。

前天，二姐还问我说，我是不是失恋了，为什么看起来闷闷不乐。。。哈哈，那只是因为我没心情讲话而已，没谈什么恋爱啦！做人真的好累啊！！！你知不知道？？要看人家的脸色做人。现在，连跟人家开个小玩笑也要看对方的心情先。。。

我想了很久很久，到底要改变我的性格呢，还是保留自己的做人的方式？？？我不知道。。。顺其自然吧！！！

好想念以前小时候的日子；好想逃避现在的生活/日子；好想去高高的山上看星星，这样我跟星星的距离就会比较近，它们会知道我的存在，知道我在跟它们说心事；好想有人可以跟我分担这一切的一切；真的好想。。。 好想。。。好想。。。因为我真的觉得好累，好累。。。

A sleepless night

Oh oo~

Now is 4:07am, but me still sit infront on my laptop...

again a sleepless night!

now hearing some songs, reading people blog, thinking some problem....

what's problem??!

It's about you?

Seriously you are hurting me so deep, and I feel very SAD yet MAD to you.

Is you calling us go out together, but at the end why you are keeping quietly.

I don't understand?

Ask me need to cherish about our friendship, I doesn't did it before? are you really feel like that?

I don't understand?

I thought after you STPM we can hang out and crazy whole day, but I was wrong!

Totally wrong!

You say I didn't care for you before, am I?

I thought that's all is not the problem, but yesterday when I saw your message, I just realize that we are having SO MANY problem between you and us...

To you:

Next time please don't force yourself do the things you don't like.

If you don't want we ask you anythings please voice out.

If you want do a whole plannig for us to hang out please hear our suggestion first.

Seriously I'm not blaming you now at all, I also want you know what is my feeling when you say this all things to me. Between I will not going to appologize with you.

YOU ARE ALWAYS MY BEST FRIEND

矛盾

眼泪；哭泣

它 根本解决不了问题；

它 只会把那些你所要忘记的回忆通通都浮现回脑海里；

它 只会给我们带来跟痛苦；

发泄工具

它 的却是我们的发泄工具；

不管男女老少，都会流泪；

不管你有多坚强，总会有流泪的时候；

不管你控制得再好，它还是会偷偷的从眼角那儿流出；

不管你多么不想流泪，夜深时，一个人时，那可恶的泪水总是

不听使唤的流出。。。

流泪=

伤心；高兴；脆弱；发泄；生气

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矛盾的我，都不知道自己在写些什么！？ 搞不懂。。。

零机会

就那么快。他有了她。没机会的我。怎么办。脑海里想着这都是他的眼光不好，他花心，他。。。

无缘。无言

我现在是伤心吗？！应该不是吧！！原来我看人就只会看外表。慢慢的，学会了，也懂了。

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欺诈了！！！！

深受一肚子气，都不知道该怎么办才好？？？等到可霓的生日一过，你就死定了！！！啊啊啊啊啊啊啊！！！！！！！！怎么办，怎么办？？？我睡不着了啦，无端端被人踩！！！！英文不好那又怎样握，我都不想的啊！！！从小，老师，父母还有朋友都说，英文是要敢敢讲，不会有人笑你的。那你又是什么意思？？？死陈氏先生，你给我好好的记住！！！

样样要求完美的你，总有一天会落败！！！不要怨我诅咒你，是你先得罪我的！！！

Edit photo!!!

Photo that upload on the public almost is to fooling the viewer!!!!!

Haha!!!! How I say so?! It is because I also do the samrthing!!!!! WAKAKAKA!!!!!

Actually this matter the victims cannot blame the uploader, how to say?! People who feel himself/herself is not pretty, then they will make their outlook more attractive, such as make up, edit their photo, wear more sexy, tattoo, using more branded to show how they rich and so on.....

So, the girlSSSSSSSS who had edit their photo is never had the criminal!!!!!!! Go ahead, do what you want to do!!!!!!!!!!
Go ahead, please don't let yourself feel regret!!!!!!!!!!


GO AHEAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!!!!!! that why I feel more comfortable right now!!!!!!!!!!!