2010♥

♥ HAPPY NEW YEAR ♥

OK, honestly I was very mad to my sisters them in the very beginning, I was begging them to go with us together, BUT..........................

but at the end I had straighten out my mind to that I cannot force anyone to do the things they are unwilling to do...

Its OK^^, you all just go to enjoy your party, still got me can accompany our parent although I also have party in my friend house...

I am very willing to do this so I must feel very happy to that and cannot blame anyone^^

Firstly, I and my mom went to my cousin house to have the steamboat together!!!♥

HAHA^^ This idea is come out from my cousin and all on the sudden/ last minutes!!!

She decided fetch her mom go to the market that nearby Farlim there and buy some steamboat stuff...

7pm++ Ooo, I and my mom went to their house and kindly buy some drinks and ice to there...

A very pretty nice steamboat♥!!!

9pm++ I went to my friend house to bbq again...eat again!!! ngek ngek ngek^^ FAT jor la, but I just take some fish ball only la, not so much too...

10.30pm++ I wanna back already although I know she is very unhappy, but I have no more choice due to my dad is back from his work and I decided bring them go to e-gate to countdown!!! I was expect she can understand me but she didn't, her family got SO many people can countdown together but mine one is just two, so I need to back!!!

So I didn't bother her and back^^

11.15pm++ reached e-gate... damn... no more table is empty!!! walk round and round also can't find any empty table=.=

So I decided go and buy some drinks at Starbucks first...and luckily I saw a place but it is indoor but it's better than no^^

Ordered a cup of Java chips♥- my favorite drinks... and a cup of toffee nut frappuccino & a piece of cake♥

before we left I ask them to wish for themselves and not for their children, both of them are wishing can be safe and sound♥ and I said all the wishes will be come true when you are wish in the new year^^

there are some picture when we are in Starbucks but kinda blur^^

After Starbucks, my friends come and meet up me again, and we just go for a drive around gurney and then went back!!!

That's all my New Year Eve!!!♥

又再一个深夜了

脑海里藏了几千几百万个字想说，想写，想发泄出来，可是当我面对着电脑的时候我且写不出内容，只能写出现在的感受。

想着 想着，眼睛却被泪水把我的视线给弄模糊了。。。

有些事只能自己知道，告诉了别人，人家会说你在背后讲人家的坏话。。。毕竟，人格有致，他有他的样，我有我的样，竟然别人跟我开不了这样子的玩笑，那以后我就得记住了，不要再犯同样的错了。。。或，不要再跟他人开完笑了。。。

我就是这样，喜欢夸张的摆弄各种的玩笑，姿态，现在的我才知道，原来这样会让人觉得我是一个做作的女生。。。我从来都没擦觉到，真的，我发誓。。。

表面装坚强的我，每次每次都独自一个人的，多在房间了偷偷哭泣。。。已经忘记了大大声，狂哭的感觉了。。。为了要展现我不是一个弱者，我选择了这样来掩护自己。。。

原来当我真正遇到有心事的时候，我会选择藏在心里；我不会选择飚车，反而架得更慢；一个人回到家时，又办得没一回事。。。

前天，二姐还问我说，我是不是失恋了，为什么看起来闷闷不乐。。。哈哈，那只是因为我没心情讲话而已，没谈什么恋爱啦！做人真的好累啊！！！你知不知道？？要看人家的脸色做人。现在，连跟人家开个小玩笑也要看对方的心情先。。。

我想了很久很久，到底要改变我的性格呢，还是保留自己的做人的方式？？？我不知道。。。顺其自然吧！！！

好想念以前小时候的日子；好想逃避现在的生活/日子；好想去高高的山上看星星，这样我跟星星的距离就会比较近，它们会知道我的存在，知道我在跟它们说心事；好想有人可以跟我分担这一切的一切；真的好想。。。 好想。。。好想。。。因为我真的觉得好累，好累。。。

A sleepless night

Oh oo~

Now is 4:07am, but me still sit infront on my laptop...

again a sleepless night!

now hearing some songs, reading people blog, thinking some problem....

what's problem??!

It's about you?

Seriously you are hurting me so deep, and I feel very SAD yet MAD to you.

Is you calling us go out together, but at the end why you are keeping quietly.

I don't understand?

Ask me need to cherish about our friendship, I doesn't did it before? are you really feel like that?

I don't understand?

I thought after you STPM we can hang out and crazy whole day, but I was wrong!

Totally wrong!

You say I didn't care for you before, am I?

I thought that's all is not the problem, but yesterday when I saw your message, I just realize that we are having SO MANY problem between you and us...

To you:

Next time please don't force yourself do the things you don't like.

If you don't want we ask you anythings please voice out.

If you want do a whole plannig for us to hang out please hear our suggestion first.

Seriously I'm not blaming you now at all, I also want you know what is my feeling when you say this all things to me. Between I will not going to appologize with you.

YOU ARE ALWAYS MY BEST FRIEND